True Confessions

True Confession #1

When I think about planning lessons, my whole brain shuts down, and I have to convince myself that it’s a necessary thing to do. Then I have to think about how long it will take me and what else I have to do that day, and if there’s any time at all to spare, the lesson planning gets bumped back. I like the actual teaching, and I love hanging out with my students every day, but the planning part is so draining. The only things in life I like planning are trips and parties. That’s it. Everything else can be improvised.

True Confession #2

When I’m walking alongside a single guy friend, I always want to hold his hand. Always. It doesn’t matter if I’m interested in him romantically or not. It just seems to me like the natural thing to do, and I have to constantly remind myself that we are not dating, that I’m not actually interested in dating him, that if I were to try and hold his hand, it would be weird, and that nothing good could come of it. It would make everything awkward and not be worth it at all. So if you are a single guy friend of mine and you notice that my conversational skills are lacking when we walk, it’s because I’m having to concentrate very hard on not weirding you out. You’re welcome.

But if you want to hold my hand, go for it. I won’t think anything of it.

Author: beth

I'm told that I'm cleverly stupid, and that's why people are friends with me. And here I thought it was because I was so dang cute...

3 thoughts on “True Confessions”

  1. I am so glad you “outed” yourself about this. Not only is it absolutely humanizing and adorable (I do hope you don’t detest that “a” adjective) but I will occasionally have a similar instinct when in the presence of a male friend. I always assumed it stemmed from my dad holding my hand until I was at least ten or eleven, and having him do so making me feel so very happy and safe.

    1. I’ll take adorable as a descriptor any day. And I’m glad to know I’m not totally alone on this. I don’t know where it comes from for me, but I think there is definitely a safety/comfort/happiness factor involved.

  2. Amen on Confession numero dos! I think lives would be improved across the board by non-romantic cross-gender hand-holding.

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