Saturday, March 13, 2010

title pic Dreamy Thoughts

Posted by beth on January 23, 2010

I’ve had some really weird dreams lately, which, you’ll know if you’ve been reading Onward Hoe! for a while, is not at all abnormal for me. I can’t remember what they’ve been exactly. I know a couple of nights ago, I was at some sort of performance camp for all ages. We were all learning music, drama, musical theater, dance, and maybe even Rock Band, and I had to leave to go somewhere for a little while, and when I got back, I had to make sure I signed back in properly so my hours of attendance were correct.

Another night maybe a week or two ago, I dreamed that someone told me that people were only nice to me because I intimidated them. Now. My Just Dance skills might frighten you, but I don’t think of myself as intimidating. Maybe I am. I don’t know. But also in that dream, my parents lived just off of some sort of boardwalk/courtyard where there was a reception desk that would give you money as though it were an ATM. You just had to fill out a withdrawal slip. But it wasn’t a bank. I don’t really know what it was, but I’m pretty sure I met a cute boy when I was withdrawing money.

And then just the other night, I don’t know what I was dreaming, but it was playing like a movie, and when it was over, I woke up. Like in my dream state, I sort of turned off the TV in my mind and decided I was finished watching, and I woke myself up.

Upon waking, I was suddenly thinking about good and evil, and if one makes the other what it is, or if we just need both to understand what they are – what they would be whether the other existed or not. And then about James Bond and how he’s a really bad, lopsided Christ figure – the kind that beats the bad guys but doesn’t have to sacrifice to do so, the kind that takes what he wants all along the way and rarely faces any consequences. I feel like I sometimes wish Jesus was like that so I wouldn’t have such an impossible time being like him. But then I remember that James Bond is at many times a total douche, and I wouldn’t want to have anything to do with a Jesus like that.

And also cookies. I’m thinking about baking some shortbread thumbprint cookies with some kind of jam in the middle.

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