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coming down (aka crashing)
By beth | July 18, 2008
Well first of all, can I get an “amen” and a “thank ya Jesus” that it is FRIDAY?! I mean seriously. This week has actually gone by really quickly, so I’m not complaining about that. I’m just saying it’s now one week closer to the end of July, and as we all know, if I make it to the end of July, I’m basically immortal. What what!
So anyhoe, I know that there are things I could be doing right now (lesson planning for next week, especially preparing sub plans, finding homes for all the stuff that’s still in boxes in my bedroom, removing the paint cans from the front yard, hooking up my DVD player, telling the post office and various companies/banks/organizations that I have a new address, paying for internet access, etc.), but the most exciting thing is that there’s nothing I have to be doing right now. Nothing. It can all wait. I’m totally allowed to just sit here and blog and chat and catch up on my blog reading. Oh sweet and glorious day that the Lord has made!! Let us all rejoice and be glad in it!
My apartment is EMPTY. It’s empty and clean, and the keys are no longer in my possession thanks to Jeff, who is unbelievably good to me (thanks buddy!). I don’t live there any more, and therefore do not have to think about that apartment or ever go back to it again. So for now, I can just sit here and blog.
I feel a little guilty. Or maybe I’m just so used to always having something pressing to run off to that I’ve forgotten what it feels like to not have anything, and that is making me feel not guilty, but…restless? At a loss? Confused? Uncertain? Exhausted?
Yeah, I’m going to go with exhausted on this one. Like now that I know I don’t have to do anything, I’m allowing myself to feel what I’ve been feeling for the past two weeks. I’ve known that I was feeling it the whole time. I’ve just been letting it come out as grumpiness because exhaustion was not an option. So to my roommates, my co-workers and Jeffrey, thank you for putting up with this. I hope to morph back into something resembling normal Beth very soon. Maybe after a nap and a movie.
On the TOTAL upside, though, Emily (Furr) Hogan is in town for the wedding of another high school friend of ours, and she stayed with us last night! She’ll also be here tonight, and I just couldn’t be more pleased to have her. It is always a pleasure. And when I was pulling out of the driveway this morning to go to work, the “solid waste” truck was outside, and there were two gentlemen inside it just looking at the giant heap of crap that’s been living in our yard for the past two weeks. So I called Whitney, who was still at home, and she watched them through the window, giving me a spectacular play-by-play of the things they were taking away and the looks they were giving each other and the way they were shaking their heads and the feelings they appeared to be experiencing. Oh it was a happy drive to work indeed!
So that, friends, is what’s going on. I am so glad that I have had time to share it with you, and I do hope to update you more frequently now that things seem to be settling down somewhat. But just don’t go expecting a whole lot while Whitney and I are in Cancun. Because I don’t know that they have internet access at the swim-up bar.
Topics: friends, Family, sleep/dreams, ESL, movies/TV/video |
August 1st, 2008 at 9:49 pm
Oh wow, Beth. So I just now read this blog post, and it reminded me of a story I forgot to tell you when I was staying with you. When I was leaving your house either Friday or Saturday morning, the trash truck was outside and the trash truck guys were rummaging through your belongings as they were tossing them into the truck. Right as I walked down the driveway to ask them if they could move the truck and let me pull my car out of the driveway, they stumbled upon a Playboy. They held it high, looked at me, laughed out loud, and when they asked me “so what goes on in that house?,” all I could do was mumble something about “I don’t live here… there were previous owners… not ours…” and then I gave up as I walked back to my car. Thought you would enjoy.